So, I have finally come to the end of my Contemporary project and overall, I guess you could say I've failed this time around.
Due to not carrying on my routine, I have a different outcome to the one that I thought I was going to have- because of this my final outcomes from the project are images from my last two shoots.
However, I'm not entirely disappointed because I have achieved different things along my journey. Plus- I didn't ask to become ill!
I started this blog to record my records and reflections on how I feel about myself and my body, and will most likely carry on. I haven't done this to gain thousands of followers or page views; because to be quite frank I have done this for myself and only myself. I truly couldn't care less if people didn't care about what I was doing; because it's about making myself feel good, not others.
If you had of asked me two years ago if you think I'd be at the gym four times a week, lifting weights I most likely would have laughed.
Overall I'm okay with the outcome; I'm not over the moon about it because I was hoping to have had completely different images of myself to the ones that I started the project with, but this journey for me isn't over. Just yet.

I cancelled my gym membership the other day, however this is not the end.
I just figured that whilst I'm unwell, and have University deadlines going on there's no point in stressing out even more worrying about the gym.
I have decided that I will go back as soon as I break up for the summer (mid May), this way I'll be able to focus on gym and just gym.
My brother and Matt have been teasing me about quitting; saying that I'm using glandular fever as an excuse and to just shrug it off and carry on- However, if a doctor has advised me to stop until I feel better that is what I'll do. You can't buy health.
In the mean time, while I'm not attending- I need to watch what I'm eating. I haven't been eating as healthy as I was eating, so I don't want to put on weight when I've maintained my weight so well up to now.

It's been over a week since I last posted something!
Within that week, I completed my next shoot for this project.
I wanted to do something different to what I had done before; I wanted to explore into the deeper routed problem, and that is that I've never been happy with my body.
I've either always felt fat, or I've always felt ugly in some way. Within this shoot, you can see this.
I worked especially hard on my performance; my body language, my facial expressions and I believe I have achieved the truth within this series.
Here's a few of my favourites: